The start of Jude's life

How did all this start? Of course, it started with finding out I was pregnant with Jude. I have to admit -- I wasn't happy. My baby at the time, Josie, was only 10 months old and I got pregnant with her when my baby, Tom, was only 10 months old. I really wasn't ready for it again. It took me a week to adjust well enough to the news to tell my husband. I did get over my shock and apprehension quickly enough -- I found out after Thanksgiving and by Christmas I was happy to be having another baby. Do I feel guilty about those feelings now -- no. Not an ounce of guilt about it. I suppose if I felt Jude was "unwanted" up until the moment of delivery, I might feel guilty about what I was feeling. By the time I delivered, Jude was a very much wanted and anticipated by his entire family.