First Day to Blog

First off, I am the mother of 7. This is important because no matter how manner children you've raised, it doesn't prepare you for having a child with disabilities. As a matter of fact -- I think I'm even more at a loss because I think I should know what to do, I think I should know how babies should be, what they should be doing, eating, acting, playing....and Jude has changed everything I thought I knew about parenting. Not only does it change how I relate to him, it changes how I relate to the others, how I organize time -- what I can do. I've had six easy babies, some cried more than others, but, in general, easy, easy babies. Then, at the end of my childbearing years, I got a big surprise. A beautiful, loving, sweet surprise, but a child that I can't predict and who I feel I'm in completely uncharted waters with. I've gone through some rough times in the past 11 months. Times I'm loathe to share with anyone because most people think I handle it all so well -- and who wants to dispell the notion that they are superwoman?