Control

I guess what is bothering me the most is that I have no control over the situation. I cannot make Jude better through force of will. I have to accept things that I don't like, I have to accept that I can't change things I don't like and, worst of all, I can't walk away from things I just don't like. I would never walk away from my child -- but somedays I would love it if these problems weren't mine.